Our meddling intellect/ Mis-shapes the beauteous forms of things:--we murder to dissect.
Well I have been missing for a while. Not as long as some but still a time. As of late I've been doing my best to keep up with my studies and assignments like a good little student. It is kinda a chore because you plan and plan and then this teacher wants to throw a surprise at you, like a porfolio. Courses aren't too bad this semester. I'm taking FYX with O'Dell (he's on the people who inspire me to teach list along with Cypert (3) and Perry (1)) and I have him for Great Books 202. Today we discussed the geometry and the soul...yeah it was interesting. I have one of these classes with Starr so that's nice. These classes are almost guartenteed A's--I preform well for him because he's open minded. I have Finite math with a professor named Edge...he looks (and please don't take this the wrong way) as if Peter and Junior somehow had their DNA combined....he's tall and thin an has Peter's Hair and laugh but Junior's pants from Sophomore year....yeah I have this class with most of D3 including Quita. Quita is also in my Romantism class...which we will not be talking about X_X. My first day in Intro to Education really was terrible the professor is an old bitty that seemed to loath the entireity of the class...she really was spiteful. Anyway when I'm not at class I'm at work...which is worse now that Tamera left. It was sad....they're looking for someone to replace her but so far they have no one.
So when I'm not at work or in class or buying supplies with Quita, Starr and Billy at Wal Mart...I'm usually trying to hunt down people. Lisette and I have been playing phone and IM tag for the last 2 weeks I think. I've been trying to find Jonnell for like a month...I swear her brothers are lying when they say she's not there....that just frustrates me. You know I can't even find Nancy....maybe I got the wrong e-mail..who knows.
Quita is sick I'm worried about her...she's fine but she's not herself. She usually humors me when I jump on her bed like a playful kitten and want her attention. Today she just rolled over...it reminded me about my mother. When my brother was born, my mom had this post pardom depression episode where she wouldn't get out of bed and would always just roll over when I tried to talk to her...it doesn't make a good comparison but the look in Quita's eyes took me back to that time...Q wondered off the other day late at night. She and T had a bit of a quarrell and I thought she wondered off to think. She was gone for a while and I got worried that she might be crying so I went to look for her. I looked for 30 minutes and I couldn't find her. I got really worried and I started running all over the place. When I finally found her I just plopped down on the floor and stayed there til she was ready to leave. I feel a lot of the time that Q is all I got...at least while I'm out here in Macon. Like she's the only person I can depend on for anything at anytime, no offense to my other friends but Q is physically here you know? I hope Q gets better soon for all our sakes ^_^
I read Lum's blog today. Even though she and I don't talk anymore I still like to drop in and check on how she is doing. Sometimes her thoughts make me smile. That's where Q and I found out about her seizure. When I read her blog at first I thought it was one of Lum's many entries from her novels--then I realized it was about her. I was scared. I don't know...something to the effect of when Quita texted me that Jon died...but not nearly the same. I just felt sick. I've always held Lum in high regards even after our fall out. She seemed...transendent to me...I don't know how to explain it and really I don't think I have to because you all have heard me talk about her before...it seemed like...something that shouldn't have happened. Like my wreck...it happened, it just did there isn't some greater meaning to it in my mind it just happened. In my mind I really am like anyone else so my mentality wasn't that this is suppose to happen to other people not me it was Fuck I have no car and I made my parents cry. I don't know if it's normal to worry more about that then like the can I walk am I going to die...I don't know but to the point...the mentality when it comes to Lum is that things like that don't happen to her. At least if I had my way they wouldn't....this all so sounds so trite and pointless....I just sincerly hope it never happens again....I don't like seeing people I care about hurt.
I really wish there was something I could do but I can't so I guess all I can do is pray...but I never was the praying kind....
Well I have been missing for a while. Not as long as some but still a time. As of late I've been doing my best to keep up with my studies and assignments like a good little student. It is kinda a chore because you plan and plan and then this teacher wants to throw a surprise at you, like a porfolio. Courses aren't too bad this semester. I'm taking FYX with O'Dell (he's on the people who inspire me to teach list along with Cypert (3) and Perry (1)) and I have him for Great Books 202. Today we discussed the geometry and the soul...yeah it was interesting. I have one of these classes with Starr so that's nice. These classes are almost guartenteed A's--I preform well for him because he's open minded. I have Finite math with a professor named Edge...he looks (and please don't take this the wrong way) as if Peter and Junior somehow had their DNA combined....he's tall and thin an has Peter's Hair and laugh but Junior's pants from Sophomore year....yeah I have this class with most of D3 including Quita. Quita is also in my Romantism class...which we will not be talking about X_X. My first day in Intro to Education really was terrible the professor is an old bitty that seemed to loath the entireity of the class...she really was spiteful. Anyway when I'm not at class I'm at work...which is worse now that Tamera left. It was sad....they're looking for someone to replace her but so far they have no one.
So when I'm not at work or in class or buying supplies with Quita, Starr and Billy at Wal Mart...I'm usually trying to hunt down people. Lisette and I have been playing phone and IM tag for the last 2 weeks I think. I've been trying to find Jonnell for like a month...I swear her brothers are lying when they say she's not there....that just frustrates me. You know I can't even find Nancy....maybe I got the wrong e-mail..who knows.
Quita is sick I'm worried about her...she's fine but she's not herself. She usually humors me when I jump on her bed like a playful kitten and want her attention. Today she just rolled over...it reminded me about my mother. When my brother was born, my mom had this post pardom depression episode where she wouldn't get out of bed and would always just roll over when I tried to talk to her...it doesn't make a good comparison but the look in Quita's eyes took me back to that time...Q wondered off the other day late at night. She and T had a bit of a quarrell and I thought she wondered off to think. She was gone for a while and I got worried that she might be crying so I went to look for her. I looked for 30 minutes and I couldn't find her. I got really worried and I started running all over the place. When I finally found her I just plopped down on the floor and stayed there til she was ready to leave. I feel a lot of the time that Q is all I got...at least while I'm out here in Macon. Like she's the only person I can depend on for anything at anytime, no offense to my other friends but Q is physically here you know? I hope Q gets better soon for all our sakes ^_^
I read Lum's blog today. Even though she and I don't talk anymore I still like to drop in and check on how she is doing. Sometimes her thoughts make me smile. That's where Q and I found out about her seizure. When I read her blog at first I thought it was one of Lum's many entries from her novels--then I realized it was about her. I was scared. I don't know...something to the effect of when Quita texted me that Jon died...but not nearly the same. I just felt sick. I've always held Lum in high regards even after our fall out. She seemed...transendent to me...I don't know how to explain it and really I don't think I have to because you all have heard me talk about her before...it seemed like...something that shouldn't have happened. Like my wreck...it happened, it just did there isn't some greater meaning to it in my mind it just happened. In my mind I really am like anyone else so my mentality wasn't that this is suppose to happen to other people not me it was Fuck I have no car and I made my parents cry. I don't know if it's normal to worry more about that then like the can I walk am I going to die...I don't know but to the point...the mentality when it comes to Lum is that things like that don't happen to her. At least if I had my way they wouldn't....this all so sounds so trite and pointless....I just sincerly hope it never happens again....I don't like seeing people I care about hurt.
I really wish there was something I could do but I can't so I guess all I can do is pray...but I never was the praying kind....
1 Comments:
I'm certain that Lauren appreciates you concern for her ^_^
It's a shame to hear your Intro to Education teacher is an old bitty >_< ... My Educational Psychology teacher is this young, bouncy lady who gives us candy and popcorn while we talk about kids with behavioral problems! ... Not to make you jealous... but maybe you'll be able to get one of the young'uns as the courses proceed!
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